
Today is bittersweet because Wantok has flown away to her freedom, and I am numb with shock. This is what happened.
Son and I returned from visiting Husband in the hospital yesterday afternoon, to find that Wantok had begun to chew away the electrical power points in the veranda, so Son and I then had an argument about what to do with her.
Son: She wants to be free or she wouldn’t be getting so out of control.
Me: I told you I’ve ordered the aviary. We just have to wait a couple of weeks for it to be built.
Son: That’s not freedom. Look at her. She wants to fly, Mum – really fly. (Wantok was swooping back and forth above our heads).
Me: She can fly in here – she flies up and down the veranda all day. (I ducked as Wantok’s wings fanned my hair).
Son: And that’s normal, is it, for a huge, wild cockatoo to spend its life flying inside a room.
Me: Well, no.
Son: Same thing goes for the stupid aviary idea. She’ll still be trapped. I thought you didn’t agree with caging birds.
Me: I guess I thought she’d be more tameable and she could come in and out….
Son: Plus she’s started biting us – that means she’s not happy. And she stares out the window a lot. (As if to demonstrate this, Wantok settled on top of her cage and stared out the window at the peacocks.)
Me: So what do you want to do?
Son: I want to take her outside and see what happens.
Me: Okay, but if she flies off you have to follow her.
Son: Are you sure?
Me: No, but you obviously are.
So then Son went up to Wantok and she climbed onto his shoulder, then he walked to the veranda door, opened it and went outside. For a moment or so, Wantok took in the new situation, then seemed to take a deep breath and, in a whoosh of wings, she was off, uttering loud, guttural cries of joy.
I watched Son run after her, but less than a minute later he was back looking appalled.
Son: Mum, she was too fast. She’s already halfway to the hills. I lost sight of her. Oh no, what have I done? (He was close to tears).
Me: You’ve set her free. (I could feel a sliver of my heart peel away).
Oh, I hope we’ve done the right thing. There are wild cockatoos up in the hills and I feel sure she will find them and make friends with other wantoks and be much happier. Maybe she will come back and visit.
Maybe.
I am bereft.
