wings and things


on January 24, 2013

When I arrived home this afternoon, from my 3-day holiday at a resort, something went a bit skewy in my mind.

Despite a wonderful reunion with Ming and Gutsy9, there was a thudding crash of disappointment because Anthony doesn’t live here anymore.

It isn’t home without him.

60 responses to “Home

  1. lucewriter says:

    I couldn’t actually “like” this. :(.

  2. Understood, perfectly.

  3. Gardengirl says:

    the emotional roller coaster….hope everything smooths out soon. Love to you

  4. Ms. Boice says:


  5. Sorry your homecoming was bittersweet. Glad you enjoyed your little holiday though.

  6. Is this the first time you’ve come back to the house after a break since Anthony moved to the nursing lodge? If so, that must have been so hard.

  7. I’m sorry for your disappointment about Anthony not being home to welcome you back. It must be so hard to accept it, even though it is a reality. I hope that when you go see him that the both of you will spend a wonderful time together. 🙂

  8. Ugh! I just want to give you a great big hug … for all you are going through … thank you for being vulnerable enough to share these glimpses into your life.

  9. FacetsofLucy says:

    No,its not the same without him, is it? A relative was fighting heart problems and hospitalized for months.When he was released, his wife remarked that what she had missed most was just sleeping beside him at night.Sometimes its the things we take for granted that we miss the most. Having Anthony be there when you get home so you can share the fun of your trip with him and hear how he and Ming fared in your absence is certainly something you would miss. And the fact that he won’t move back is so painful.

    And yet,and yet…. there’s the chair he used to relax in each evening, his place at the table, the couch where you and he rejoiced when Ming took his first steps (if you were like us, even when he first turned over),the bedroom where you rested together each night. He’s everywhere despite his absence. I totally understand being emotionally knocked over by his physical absence but I hope there’s some sweet comfort in the memories the house offers of all you guys share. ((hugs))

  10. bulldogsturf says:

    I had to unlike this post… I feel for you…

  11. Trisha says:

    I can see how it would hit you like that after returning home. I hope seeing him tomorrow helps. Hugs to you.

  12. Robyn Lee says:

    😦 ~ so sorry Julie ~~ I can only imagine the feelings/ pain you must have encountered in that moment. Compassionate Hugs … xxoo Love to you ~ Robyn

  13. mrs fringe says:

    (((((Hugs))))) I’m still glad you had the respite. It doesn’t take the pain or realities away, and sometimes it’s that much harder when you feel you had a little break from it. I think there’s a part of our minds that believes a break should turn us into Superwomen, coming home to solve everything and have it all be ok.

  14. catchatcaren says:

    ((((hugs)))) I am so sorry

  15. Anonymous says:

    Julie, While it is home it isn’t, I truly understand. But Ants is in you, He is part of your soul, a part of your heart, and a part of your motivation. He will always be a part, and as long as he is, he is home with you, His physical presence would be wonderful, but he is still there. I know you understand and appreciate this. Just as strong as your love for him is parf of his world, his strong love for you keeps him in your world. Take care, Bill

  16. Anonymous says:

    Julie, I understand how home is there and isn’t, I truly do. But Ants is there, in the love you have for him, he is there in every story you share with us, he is there in each step you take there, he is there in every ordor in your home. He will always be there in your heart. While his health causes this liiving in separate places, it doesn’t change his location in your heart. Take care — Bill

  17. FlaHam says:

    Julie, I understand how home isn’t home, I truly do. But Ants is there with you all the time, each time you turn around he is there, in each room you feel his warmth, his love, his desires. You look at your home thru his eyes many a time, you notice his scent in every room. You know this and show this thru the so many stories you share with us. You know this thru each tear you shed for him. But always remember he is there. While his presence is a short distance down the road, his heart is “home,” and his soul is always presence. Please take care — Bill

  18. It must be really hard….Diane

  19. diannegray says:

    So sorry to hear this, Julie. It’s just not the same 😦

  20. terry1954 says:

    that’s the way I feel when I walk into my house..

  21. yellowlancer says:

    Sometimes when you think you’ve cried every tear, there’s a whole lot more. Glad you had a great time and hope seeing and telling Anthony all about it today will ease the hurt a little. Thinking of you.

  22. Oh no. I hadn’t thought about that aspect of the vacation. It’s always tough to come home after a relaxing break, but Anthony’s absence must have made it impossibly hard.

  23. dcwisdom says:

    It’s a part of your life that won’t ever be the same. Sometimes, we have to be away to come back and appreciate what we do have – love. The most wonderful attribute you have is love, and I’m sure you passed a lot of it around. Even though your homecoming was bittersweet, I hope you were able to relax and rejuvenate in the short time you had. How wonderful of Ming to make that happen for you. What a lovely guy!

    • jmgoyder says:

      Yes and I had a wonderful time – I didn’t forsee feeling like that when I got home.

      • dcwisdom says:

        Dad would get mad at Mom for leaving for a few days. But it was sooooo necessary for her mental health. I always cried that Dad could never take the same kind of break, too. I HATE Parkinson’s!

  24. tears and a big hug for you Julie…

  25. adinparadise says:

    So sad, Julie. Hugs to you.

  26. eof737 says:

    {{{HUGS}}} Thinking of you!

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