Yes – survival of the fittest, the pecking order, natural selection – all of that.
In the bird/animal kingdom this is quite straightforward and even makes its own sense, but in the human kingdom it’s not quite so easy.
Husband, Son and I had an interesting conversation the other night about whether our birds and other animals had feelings, memories, consciences and, despite a vigorous to-and-fro debate, we didn’t come to any conclusions.
This frustrated Son who likes to have answers; it amused Husband who thinks Son and I are a bit odd; but, for me, this inconclusiveness is a gift of mystery and, once I got used to it (years ago), I became enthralled with all of those unanswerable questions about suffering, about unfairness, about why and why and why….
Neverthless I keep wanting to intervene in that life and death cycle; I keep wanting to insinuate myself into that in-betweenness, to save us in the same way I might have saved our first Zaruma.
Strange post I guess – sorry; I am between a 17 year old who wants to embrace life and a 75 year old who is faltering. To be inside this situation is a bit unbearable, but luckily I can do that ‘stand back’ thing, so I know it is all going to be all right.














