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The girl with the bleeding eye

on February 5, 2012

About twice a week, during the night, Husband used to see the girl with the bleeding eye. She was always lying on her back in the single bed adjacent to his, even though that’s where I sleep now. Her left eye spurted blood in a projectile way, up towards the ceiling, then – like a waterfall in slow motion – fell, the droplets somehow evaporating before they reached the white counterpane underneath which she lay silently.

Husband used to say that this particular hallucination didn’t bother him because he knew that the girl with the bleeding eye wasn’t really there.

“What do you do when you see her?”

“I say hello.”

“What does she do?”

“She just smiles and the bleeding stops.”

BTW hallucinations are often a symptom of Parkinson’s disease and/or (paradoxically) the medications used to treat this condition. Husband has developed an heroic ability to dismiss his hallucinations as hallucinations. He’s become clever at telling the difference.

Husband also knew, from when we first got him, that Tina Turner was not a hen, but a rooster!


15 responses to “The girl with the bleeding eye

  1. pixilated2 says:

    That would scare the hell out of me. I don’t understand how he differentiates the real from the hallucinations, but it is a blessing that he can. xo ~ Lynda

    • jmgoyder says:

      Just sent you a detailed reply and it got lost in cyperspace and now I can’t be bothered reiterating – ha! Yes it’s scary but okay if you know it’s not real. Husband and I even have a laugh about the hallucinations but, needless to say, Son is not amused!

      • pixilated2 says:

        I can understand that. It’s his dad and he loves him deeply. It must make him feel very helpless when there is nothing he can do to make it go away, to make it better. He isn’t old enough to understand that feeling of “If I didn’t laugh I’d cry.” He will understand someday.

        Laughing is a stress reliever, and a balm for your hearts.
        ~ L

      • jmgoyder says:

        I must be a bit thick but is this comment to do with another post?

  2. Tilly Bud says:

    Husband is smart 🙂

  3. victoriaaphotography says:

    Love the rooster image – the side light really shows up his plumage clearly.

    Amazing that your Husband can tell the diff. between real & hallucination. He’s lucky in that. Some hallucinations might be quite frightening otherwise.

  4. magsx2 says:

    Hi,
    Your Husband is obviously a very smart man, and knows exactly how to deal with what he sees, it is a blessing in disguise.
    Are you going to rename the rooster? 🙂

    • jmgoyder says:

      The hallucination thing is quite fascinating because apparently many people with Parkinson’s simply get used to ‘living with’ everything from gremlins to animals.
      No, I am not renaming Tina until he stops attacking me!

  5. First of all that title is an attention grabber!

    You are an amazing women. Your husband obviously knew that when he asked you to marry him. I am sure you knew that about him too. My prayers are always with you, your son and your husband.

    • jmgoyder says:

      I’m not amazing – I get terribly down. He is the amazing one in that he hardly ever gets down – heroic actually. Thanks so much for your lovely comment!

  6. bluebee says:

    Amazing that your husband can differentiate like this

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