Today.
I went in and picked Husband up this morning from the nursing lodge to spend the day with Son and me.
Several hours later, I had to take Husband back for dinner and medication. When I had to say goodbye, a feeling of such deafening bereftness made my ears ring until Husband kissed my hand and said, “This is all right; I am all right. There is nothing else we could have done so go on, go home and look after our son.”
Driving home, I hummed one of Husband’s favourite songs – Michael Jackson’s “We are the world”, sobbing to have lost half of my world – this hero of a husband who has always cared more about others than he has ever cared about himself …
I have so much more to say about this heroic husband of mine but this is probably a post I should continue when I get my sense of humour back.
Tomorrow.
jmgoyder 
My heart goes out to you. Enjoy each day you that you have together, they are so very precious.
Thank you Helen and that means a lot because you really know – Julie
Sending only a hug today, because somehow I feel my words are superfluous to the situation.
~ Lynda
Right back at you!
I’m saying a prayer for you right now. Big hugs.
~FringeGirl
Say a prayer for him to be happy – thanks!
You write so eloquently about your sadness. I would be a blubbering mess. Your words are so poignant.
Humour kept us all going during the years of Husband’s physical deterioration. I need to figure out how to get the humour back. Thanks for your very kind words.
You pierced my heart with your post, I’ve been in your shoes, I wish I could say it get’s easier, but it does not. Just enjoy all of your precious tme together.
Yes it’s a strange situation because when he comes home, instead of enjoying it, we both sort of dread him going back. I need to change the way we think about these days!
Without overstepping, in my experience, with my Momma, if I make her laugh, and be funny, and drive her crazy, she seems to enjoy it more than with being serious and sad.
Yes, you are very right and that’s how it used to be – a laugh a minute – I think the sad thing is just a temporary stepping stone, maybe even a necessary part of the process. I will be the life of the party when I bring Husband home again tomorrow!! Thanks camsgranny!
So wonderful you were able to spend some time together…and I’m feeling your tears.
He’s coming home for the day again tomorrow and this time I am not going to let the sadness creep in!
Here here. He’s a gem.
Thanks bro.!
So frustrating that our knowledge of the impermanence of our happy moments gets in the way of our happy moments! Your husband sounds like a wonderful man, and one who knows he is loved, Julie
Thanks bluebee for such a beautiful and wise comment which I am now thinking through. You are right about my husband because just a minute ago, on the phone, he said “I don’t have to come over tomorrow again, Jules, you have the kid to look after.”
Heroes are so often those coping without complaint with the way their lives have turned out.
Medals all round here.
xx
Oh I complain all right but not so much on the blog – hehe! Your comment makes me feel better – thx!
No words, just hugs flying across the universe. Margie
Thank you!