It was a day of contradictions with a good dose of anger thrown in. Ming was angry with me (characteristically) for not warning him that Anthony was being wheelchair-taxied home for lunch; I was angry with Ming for not going with the flow; and Anthony was angry with me (uncharacteristically) when the taxi came to pick him up to take him back to the nursing lodge after only 3 hours of being home.
However (and thank goodness for however) it was a sunny day, I cooked a lovely lunch, we sat outside and Ming played his guitar and a friend came over to see us later on and she was there when Ants was taxied away and she tolerated my mixed emotions about a whole lot of stuff – a good friend who also tolerated the fact that I have still not pruned the roses!
When I kissed Ants goodbye, he was quite nasty to me. No, that’s not quite accurate; he was quite unhappy with me – for sending him back. We had had several tail-chasing conversations during the day about him wanting to stay the night, about the impossibility of this because I cannot lift him etc. Ming became impatient and told us both to shut up and I have to admit I just wanted the whole ordeal over and done with.
So, when Ants had been taxied off and Ming had gone off to milk cows, and I was alone, I waited for the usual sobbing to happen, but it didn’t!
Instead, I decided to look at a few pictures I’d taken earlier in the day, to see if they worked out. Here they are – our one white peacock (we have two white peahens as well) finally grown up enough to display!
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What a beautiful creature he is. I have never seen a white peacock and he must be a sight to behold.
And his feathers are still growing!
Lovely peacock. Interesting day.
I’ll swap you a peacock for a chaffinch!
We’ve plenty to spare.
our days never turn out how we imagine – they are made up of the good and the bad, but you escaped ugly with these beautiful pics (hugs)
He was on the roof the other day displaying but I didn’t have my camera!
of course
Julie, you are one of the most courageous and radiant women I have ever encountered — and that peacock is gorgeous!
I can also be a real bitch – ha!
i think that although Ants got to come home, and MIng was somewhat upset, you didn’t cry, because secretly you were glad it was over, or at least i think this is how i would feel. sometimes when we are trying to make others happy we end up making ourselves miserable. you love Ants with all of your heart, but things have changed, and he is difficult to handle and this is a reminder to you of what has happened and how much life is different today. our minds adjust, just as mine will when Al is placed, and then everything gets stirred up again when we are faced with the hardness of the PD. love ya and big hugs from me!
Yes you are so right Terry – thank you so much!
nice to be able to talk to u for a moment!
I am gonna ring you when I get brave enough!
Julie–sounds like a rough day, challenging in spots, but also full of love. So hard to balance everything you have going on in your life; yet you do it with such grace, tenderness, and appreciation for beauty.
Lucky you didn’t hear me yelling at Ming later that night!
I have never seen white peahens in person. She’s beautiful! Sorry about your day lovebug. I so admire your strength. HUGS.
She’s a he – the girls don’t do that display thing. On the other hand I sometimes get bird gender wrong so you never know – ha! Thanks for your encouraging hugs!
haha I don’t know birds but I thought peahens were female and peacocks were male!
You are right and I think it is me getting confused – hahahaha!
I am? I am right? Somebody write that down somewhere! I’m right! (Standing on a chair doing the Snoopy dance!)
I can just picture it!
Julie, what a wonderful bird – stunning and it’s showing itself of for you – to keep you smiling … great photos. Julie, you did the right thing. Because Ant’s attitude against going back to the care-lodge will not change – so sobbing doesn’t help in that case and won’t change anything. Ming is Ming and he want to know what’s going on – he want to be in control, is my guess.
Yes you are right in all you say here – thanks Viveka!
Frustrating – ugh — I feel for you so much Julie — it’s different than my dilemma – but yet — generates some similar emotions — I wish I could take you to my beach!!! xxooo Peacock distraction good — I did a post yesterday night too— was time to distract and was inspired at the sea for a few … Sending Love xxoo
So glad you were able to do a post – wonderful!
Beautiful Jules. you & the peacock. Growing up is not always easy, but always beautiful my friend ~ BB
Thanks CC!
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Sorry your time with Ants was spoiled by unhappy feelings.
I did not know there were white peacocks…he is beautiful!!
Yes I have two females and this male. I love them.
You’re getting stronger.
Hope so.
Gorgeous birds! Never seen anything like ’em. I’m sorry for how your day progressed. I’ll email you soon. XO
All ok now – going into nursing lodge soon – much easier.
Love the peacocks – white ones are so gorgeous. Good for you finding the lemonade in your day!
That’s a good way of putting it!
Do you ever wish you could just jump in the taxi by yourself, and have it take you far away? That’s how I would feel, I think.
Yes yes yes yes!
Oh, “those” days. We all have them, and sometimes they just keep coming. Still, it’s the mix of good and bad that does keep things interesting. I know that when the weather just goes on and on and on with nothing but blue skies and sunshine, I can find myself longing for a cloud!
I’ll say this – that white peacock is stunning. I’ve never seen one in real life, let alone one that will display, and he’s just magnificent.
You are so funny longing for a cloud – love this comment – thanks!
How gorgeous is that display of white feathers. They are soooooooo beautiful.
How lucky you are to have these white peacocks. A Display like that is enough to cheer anyone up.
Yes it made the day okay again!
Love the peacock such a nice picture to end the post with, it must be so stressful and frustrating having to deal with Ming and Ants at time you love them but there must be times when you feel like screaming “I’m doing the best I can get off my back”
You got that right!
Sorry about the bad day. But what a stunning bird. More photos of this one please! The white and the delicate feathers are so beautiful.
Thanks Susan – yeah and his feather are only half grown!
Keep on keeping on. I am right behind you
Thanks Elizabeth!
Find a place to write down Ants’ visit schedule Jules..then the responsibility for being informed will be Ming’s and not yours. Sure, understandable he wants to be kept in the loop, but you are looping the loop for everyone…tell him to just jump the hell in. He’s a sweet one, but time to grow up a little on this one Ming a ling! Love your white stallion and you of course.
xo
R
Good advice – we keep changing our schedule and that’s the trouble and you are right about the brat!
use a white board then, with dry markers…can erase and change as needed. get Ming involved, let him write the schedule, then he’ll see how hard it is to keep looping all the time!
You are a genius!
ha! now I know you are delirious! do that thing so i can get into wp. i found the user id and pw…just need to make sure i can get in. ok?
just did!
come chat for a sec…or go read my messages.
Wishing you a stress free day ahead!
So far so good!
Well done, Julie. You went with the flow and you paid attention to you. I am happy to see the shots of these birds with their tail feathers on display.how is your leg healing?
All fine now – thanks Jane!
Beautiful photographs… I wish you too a day without any stress… Thank you, Love, nia
Sometimes, good intentions go down the tubes, and you just can’t win. I’m getting better at that. I concentrate on the intentions and tolerate the outcomes more, whatever they are. But the good news is…your white peacock is absolutely lovely.
Good advice!
it is so wonderful to hear you moving to the stage you are at now. there will still be days of tears however, they will be fewer than before. i think of you everyday and love the pics! keep looking at the world through your lense.
I am gobsmacked at how generous you are when you are the one in pain.
Fabulous bird.
So is the peacock.
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