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On being sick

on October 21, 2014

I have been fluey for a couple of weeks; then on weekend it turned into what I now call ‘spring asthma’. I think this is the fourth year it has happened, after decades of being free of asthma.

As a child I had it chronically and remember vividly all of the emergency dashes to hospital, the adrenaline injections, the oxygen tents, my mother squeezing my toe.

I am very good at dealing with other people’s illnesses but when it comes to me I wimp out and get terrified, beyond reason (although asthma is terrifying). Ming hates it if I get sick, so much so that he withdraws and I understand this since so much of his life has already been shadowed by Anthony’s many illnesses.

Even though I am on the mend now with the help of antibiotics and steroids and can breathe better, I am still scared and seem to have landed in a place of dense gloom. But, at the same time, my admiration for people who are chronically ill smacks me in the face when I realize that I will get better easily, and they might not.

To cope with being sick, or afflicted in terms of sight and other senses, in an ongoing way, is something that awes me. I would not be as strong as the people I know (via daily interactions and blog contacts).

So, as soon as I am not sick anymore, I will get back on my bike, and write about Anthony and stop dillydallying around with impossible goals….

…. and catch up with blogs!


27 responses to “On being sick

  1. ksbeth says:

    aw…feel better jules. it is hard when the one who takes care of everyone is feeling ill, hard for everyone to understand including the caregiver herself )

  2. Vicki says:

    Just get 100% well.
    Love & Hugs to you
    Vicki
    x

  3. bulldog says:

    Hey I heard a thing the other day which I wanted to try out… They say if you’re suffering from a breathing ailment or getting flu or the like… take a whole onion, cut it in half and place it on a plate in your room over a few nights… they say it collects all the viruses and in the end turns black…. try it I want to know if it works… since hearing this I’ve just remained healthy so maybe you can be the guinea pig…. Sterkte…

  4. Feel for you, asthma is not fun.

  5. Terry says:

    I am the same way as far as patients and myself. I am there for others all the way, but if it is me, I cringe, get scared, feel alone. We are two peas in a pod, right? LOL Get better real quick

  6. Take care of you lady Ming and Anthony need you. I pray for a quick healing for you.

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  7. I wondered about how you or Anthony were doing…. so sorry you’ve been unwell. I too had asthma bad as a child and intermittently as an adult so I know the feelings and the struggle to breathe easily…though I haven’t been bothered now for yeas… Feel better soon friend…. Diane

  8. I’m so glad that you are on the mend! I used to suffer from allergy related asthma and I know how distressing it is when you can’t breathe. Luckily I went through 3 years of allergy shots, stopped smoking 7 years ago and aside from the rare wheezing I haven’t had an asthma attack in quite awhile. I am sure that you are itching to get back to Anthony and the lovely people at the home. Hugs Jules xoxo

  9. get better Julie – ((hugs))

  10. Hope you feel better soon Julie! ❤ I turn into a big baby when I'm sick, seriously. 😀
    Diana xo

  11. janeslog says:

    Nothing worse that feeling ill. I can imagine not being able to breath is very frightening for the patient and those around. Ming probably gets alarmed and frightened when you are like that and that is why he withdraws.

    My doctor friend got me into hand washing years ago as she said it helped avoid many illnesses and I am rarely ill now.

    We are coming into the ‘flu season in the Northern Hemisphere so I paid £12 to get a ‘flu jab. ‘Flu is hellish – I’ve only had it once and it was terrible.

    The thing to think about however ill you feel is that there is always someone suffering more than you – always keep thinking that you will soon get better and you will. Rest up in bed and watch TV or a film on your DVD or tablet and only get out of bed when you feel able to.

  12. Rhonda says:

    You WOULD be as strong…you ARE as strong. You never know what you are capable of until you have to. Look at what you’ve done already! Get better Jules…sending good thoughts your way. Love you xoxo

  13. tootlepedal says:

    Sympathy is winging its way towards you from Ally and me.

  14. I’m curious to see if the onion works! I hope it does and that you feel much better soon.

  15. tersiaburger says:

    LOts of well wishes and love!

  16. Trisha says:

    Asthma is a scary thing. I think anyone who isn’t used to it would be terrified. Sickness always makes me feel gloomy too. I hope you feel better soon and that the gloom lifts away.

  17. Hope today finds you feeling better ♥ I’m with you….not good at being sick! Hugs!

  18. Take care. Get well. Sending you cyber CNS (chicken noodle soup). 🙂 ❤

  19. I had a stint of asthma for a few years when I first moved to the desert. I hated it–that desperate claustrophobic feel. My neighbor was much worse, and they had military medical, which was always slow and long waits. So when she was still breathing okay but needed to be seen, she would run the stairs a couple of times so she could barely breathe. That way she would be taken in over everyone else and get her treatment! Kind of like playing with fire. GET WELL SOON!

  20. susanpoozan says:

    Very annoying that your asthma has come back, I was glad to read that you shook it off in the end.

  21. Lynda says:

    Just be well, and don’t worry about catching up. We’ll find you! 😀

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