wings and things


on January 27, 2016

At nearly 80, Anthony’s Parkinson’s symptoms have reached a new dimension. He is uneasy with certain people/animals/things: sometimes it is a new carer; sometimes it is with the unruliness of a rogue calf that he remembers naming ‘Reject’; mostly it is to do with his slightly younger brother.

Advanced Parkinson’s disease – accompanied by dementia, and the medications -often leads to delusions, paranoia, hallucinations, nightmares. I can still remember Ants yelling in his sleep in the night-years prior to his admittance to the nursing home four year ago.

I have tried, tactfully, personally, and publicly, to stop all visits to Anthony from the younger brother. These visit aren’t often anyway but, apart from being awkward, they always leave Ants with anxiety.

His nearly 80-year-old perspective, his paranoia, his tolerance …. Bravo, Ants.



25 responses to “Paranoia

  1. Many hugs to you Julie. My heart beats with yours and though I am thousands of miles away, know that I see you. I hear you.

    Much love.

  2. tersiaburger says:

    Much love – as always.

  3. shoreacres says:

    An amusing sidenote to your not exactly amusing entry. When you mentioned the calf named Reject, it reminded me of a white-tailed deer we used to watch crossing property with its friends. The rest of the deer would jump the 4′ fence easily. The one hesitant white-tail? No way. It would spend hours going up and down, trying to find a way to cross that fence that it met up with on an almost daily basis. The neighbor who owned the property called him Retardo. 🙂

  4. susanpoozan says:

    I am so sorry that Anthony’s younger brother cannot understand, or doesn’t want to understand, how he upsets his brother. I am sure that you have done everything you can. Lots of sympathy

  5. Judy says:

    Yes, paranoia represents the disease and not him. Hence, every episode is just a painful reminder of how he is not the man you once knew. All of the PD symptoms are like that – so much loss! And then to know how much he was tormented by his younger brother – and that continues. I cannot imagine how infuriating that must me. So sorry, Julie.

    • jmgoyder says:

      It is so difficult atm

      • Judy says:

        It’s been difficult every step of the way. Keeping your chin up sometimes is too hard when it feels like you are being slapped in the face. With this disease’s horrible progression, you are watching the man you adore fade from your life. So sorry, Julie.

  6. Hugs Jules xxxxooo 😀

  7. Vicki says:

    Such a difficult time in Anthony’s Health Journey.

    It’s a sad place when family (Anthony’s younger brother) do not understand the situation. I guess some people have blinkers on and will never see the reality.

    You certainly have my sympathy.

    Much love….Vicki x

  8. ksbeth says:

    like children, people with wisdom can always sense who people really are –

  9. His instincts seem to be intact Julie. I’m sorry though, that he has to deal with it.

  10. Yeah I get that you would rather his brother just not visit, is the brother just an asshole who sets out to upset Anthony or does he not get that is actions and words are upsetting from what I have read to he seems more like a simple asshole.

  11. balgillblog says:

    Fantastic and deeply touching

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