In the evenings, Karen’s husband, Vince would come home and serve us pre-dinner drinks – mineral water in beautiful wine glasses (the retreat was alcohol-free) and then seat us at the dining table. This table was in itself a visual gift – white linen table cloth, fresh flowers, scented candles. The other guest, J, and I were then served two courses of amazing food – mostly vegetarian/vegan/raw, beautifully interesting and creative. The four of us would chit-chat during the meal as Karen served and Vince washed up. There was a feeling of leisurely calm in the serving and partaking of food and Karen was very happy to share her recipe secrets.
I have never really thought about the idea of sustenance before but Karen (a qualified chef) provided us with such amazingly healthy food that we came away from that dining table sated, even comforted somehow. Having not eaten much of anything since Anthony died, it was a luxury to be fed in such a kind way. I kept wanting to hop up and help with the dishes etc. but soon learned that it gave Karen and Vince a lot of pleasure to serve us. I felt like a queen!
After dinner, I mostly retired to my suite and watched television and/or cried for Anthony. The resort had an extensive dvd and book library so, as a movie fan, I was in my element. It was absolutely wonderful to know that, once I’d retired, I would not be disturbed and that private space of grief, and movie distraction, and tears, and sleep helped me recover. Plus my bathroom had a big spa bath and I made the most of that as we only have a shower at home.
I realise that these posts are a bit disjointed but it is impossible to describe KalyaaNa – https://www.kalyaanawellnessretreat.com.au/ – in a single post. The experience was surreal and valuable at so many levels.
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Wow, Julie, I had a look at the website and their menu looks amazing. I’ve been a veggie for 28 years and never seen anything so amazing.
It sounds like a truly healing environment, hopefully you will emerge comforted.
It sounds like exactly what you needed… time to just feel what you want to feel … cry when you want…. be distracted by choice… but cooked for, and your spirit nurtured… Diane
Julie, I couldn’t be happier hearing what you are doing to heal and soothe your soul. What a beautiful description. Somehow, I am imagining that your mom encouraged this – or a good friend. I’m so glad you were willing and able.
Keep writing and sharing. I’ve been so concerned about you. Much love and hugs from me to you!
Sounds like a wonderful place and one I would like!
Sounds like to perfect place to ‘retreat’ for some luxurious stress-free space that made you feel alone (when you desired to be), and comforted with the presence of calming grace (when you needed it).
It sounds like an amazing place