wings and things

Imagined conversation 4

on January 26, 2018

Me: Hi Ants.

Anthony: Hi Jules.

Me: I’m so much better. I can’t believe it – it’s such a relief!

Anthony: That’s good, Jules.

Me: Is there any way you can put a bit more animation into your voice? I’m beginning to forget your voice, you know, the one you used to have before Parkinson’s disease.


Me: I think so but you sound really fake.

Anthony: I’ll try harder, okay?

Me: That would be great because I didn’t realise until today that I had forgotten how you used to speak. I know it was always loud and booming with enthusiasm but I can’t remember what you actually said before you got sick.

Anthony: Probably a lot of bullshit.

Me: No way! You could sometimes be quite profound actually, even after you got sick.

Anthony: That’s good, Jules.

Me: You’ve already said that.

[Anthony sighs]

Me: Sorry.

Anthony: You have absolutely nothing to be sorry about. How is the …?

Me: The son? Ming?

Anthony: That’s the one. Yes.

Me: He is amazing – a rock! He has this extraordinary ability to do empathy without getting down in the dumps himself. We are so lucky to have this incredible son, aren’t we!

[Anthony nods]

Me: Sometimes I hear his loud laugh on the phone with someone and it sounds exactly like you – exactly! It’s a bit disconcerting.

Anthony: That’s good, Jules.

Me: Oh, okay, you sound tired.

Anthony: That’s you, not me.

Me: I couldn’t wait to get home so I could talk to you like this, Ants! My psychologist will either be relieved or have me committed.

Anthony: You’ll be right, Jules.

Me: Okay, good night, Ants. I love you.

Anthony: ‘Night, Jules. Give me a kiss on my heavenly brow.

Me: OMG, it IS you!

Note to readers: I am not going mad – this is great fun, sort of.


12 responses to “Imagined conversation 4

  1. Anonymous says:

    These chats are brilliant. I wish I could think of a brilliant quote about humour. It is making all the difference as you begin your healing journey.

  2. susanpoozan says:

    I am glad you are not going mad!

  3. No not mad, just finding a way to cope

  4. beeblu says:

    It’s good to find you here with your sense of humour still in tact.

  5. beeblu says:

    *intact* πŸ€“

  6. Vicki says:

    Aren’t we all a bit cuckoo at times in our lives. People who don’t have this ability to talk to themselves in this rational and calm way don’t know what they’re missing.

    I think its a wonderful way to keep the memories of Anthony alive and flourishing. Besides, it, is, fun πŸ˜€

  7. zannyro says:

    Whatever works…is good.

  8. Ann Koplow says:

    These imagined chats are very therapeutic for all of us!

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