wings and things

Imagined conversation 34

on May 23, 2018

Me: I failed the motorbike test yesterday.

Anthony: It’s okay, Jules. You can do it again.

Me: There is something fundamentally wrong with my brain when it comes to U-turns, Ants. The fear is like some sort of weird vice. Plus I am too fast – it’s like I am trying to rush into succeeding but I can’t help it!

Anthony: Well, you were always knee-jerk, Jules.

Me: That’s not fair, Ants! I don’t mean to be like that – I really am trying my best here.

Anthony: So why did the guy who took you for the test ask if you were part of the Peter Brock family?

Me: Because he was being sarcastic!

Anthony: Why are you in such a rush, Jules?

Me: I feel sort of desperate….

Anthony: Desperate for what?

Me: Something to do with your motorbikes maybe? Trying to keep up? Wanting to make you proud?

Anthony: I am already proud and always was.

Me: Of what?

Anthony: You!

Me: I wanted to ride a scooter again, reclaim my youth, honour your motorbike days, go fast fearlessly.

Anthony: Jules, you really need to bring your decades up to speed and stop living in the past. Why are you in such a hurry all the time?

Me: I don’t know. I just want to get everything over with. Or begin something new? Make myself into a new person? Make you proud? Be brave?

Anthony: Just STOP.

Me: Stop what?

Anthony: Everything, Jules.

Me: I can’t stop, Ants!

Anthony: You are not going to find me in those scooter wheels, Jules.

Me: Why?

Anthony: I was a Guzzi guy, remember?

Me: I am so pathetic.

Anthony: Not at all, Jules. D. and I just think it’s best if you stick to the car.

Me: Okay, Ants. I thought I was okay after failing the motorbike licence test but when I got home I just cried and cried and cried.

Anthony: Give it up, Jules.

Me: But I hate giving up, Ants!

Anthony: It takes a lot of courage to give up when you know that going on is futile.

Me: In that case, I give up!




7 responses to “Imagined conversation 34

  1. shoreacres says:

    That Anthony’s one smart dude. Sometimes, stopping is the right thing to do, despite our feelings about it. It’s good to remember what Jimmy Buffett said about it: “Every stop there’s a place to start.”

  2. Anonymous says:

    Anthony, your muse, is so right. Bravery is being honest with yourself. You have such grit.

  3. susanpoozan says:

    I agree with the comment above, you got good advice.

  4. tootlepedal says:

    Perhaps riding a motorbike when your mind and heart are in a whirl is not the best plan. Take the advice.

  5. So you are a lead foot no it’s a motorbike so lead hand that doesn’t sound right so forget it. you wouldn’t get me on a motorbike I have terrible balance and would fall over or should that be I would end up dropping the bike, I don’t know, I am leaving now

  6. He is so spot on with you Julie. 🙂

  7. A lot of people say it takes more than one try to get a motorcycle license and i did well in class but got a new bike a new motorcycle on test day and it all went down the tubes. I even bought a bike but I am gutless, so sold the thing and stuck to riding my bicycle.

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