Me: I failed the motorbike test yesterday.
Anthony: It’s okay, Jules. You can do it again.
Me: There is something fundamentally wrong with my brain when it comes to U-turns, Ants. The fear is like some sort of weird vice. Plus I am too fast – it’s like I am trying to rush into succeeding but I can’t help it!
Anthony: Well, you were always knee-jerk, Jules.
Me: That’s not fair, Ants! I don’t mean to be like that – I really am trying my best here.
Anthony: So why did the guy who took you for the test ask if you were part of the Peter Brock family?
Me: Because he was being sarcastic!
Anthony: Why are you in such a rush, Jules?
Me: I feel sort of desperate….
Anthony: Desperate for what?
Me: Something to do with your motorbikes maybe? Trying to keep up? Wanting to make you proud?
Anthony: I am already proud and always was.
Me: Of what?
Anthony: You!
Me: I wanted to ride a scooter again, reclaim my youth, honour your motorbike days, go fast fearlessly.
Anthony: Jules, you really need to bring your decades up to speed and stop living in the past. Why are you in such a hurry all the time?
Me: I don’t know. I just want to get everything over with. Or begin something new? Make myself into a new person? Make you proud? Be brave?
Anthony: Just STOP.
Me: Stop what?
Anthony: Everything, Jules.
Me: I can’t stop, Ants!
Anthony: You are not going to find me in those scooter wheels, Jules.
Me: Why?
Anthony: I was a Guzzi guy, remember?
Me: I am so pathetic.
Anthony: Not at all, Jules. D. and I just think it’s best if you stick to the car.
Me: Okay, Ants. I thought I was okay after failing the motorbike licence test but when I got home I just cried and cried and cried.
Anthony: Give it up, Jules.
Me: But I hate giving up, Ants!
Anthony: It takes a lot of courage to give up when you know that going on is futile.
Me: In that case, I give up!
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That Anthony’s one smart dude. Sometimes, stopping is the right thing to do, despite our feelings about it. It’s good to remember what Jimmy Buffett said about it: “Every stop there’s a place to start.”
Anthony, your muse, is so right. Bravery is being honest with yourself. You have such grit.
I agree with the comment above, you got good advice.
Perhaps riding a motorbike when your mind and heart are in a whirl is not the best plan. Take the advice.
So you are a lead foot no it’s a motorbike so lead hand that doesn’t sound right so forget it. you wouldn’t get me on a motorbike I have terrible balance and would fall over or should that be I would end up dropping the bike, I don’t know, I am leaving now
He is so spot on with you Julie. 🙂
A lot of people say it takes more than one try to get a motorcycle license and i did well in class but got a new bike a new motorcycle on test day and it all went down the tubes. I even bought a bike but I am gutless, so sold the thing and stuck to riding my bicycle.