jmgoyder

wings and things

Anthony, me and Ming

on July 20, 2021

After Anthony died (nearly four years ago!) I continued to blog and I am quite proud of the “Imagined Conversations” posts which I had intended to put together into book form.

Maybe that will still happen, maybe I will write again and even collaborate with others as planned but it is hard to get excited about death, grief, loss because these feelings have connected me with so many others who have experienced similar stuff. Empathy is great but it is also extremely debilitating.

I wanted so much to continue blogging about Anthony, Ming and me but I couldn’t sustain it; I couldn’t be bothered trying to be clever, articulate, witty or wise when I was just too bloody sad about being sad.

Now that I have gotten past the drama of selling and moving from the farm to the little cottage I now live in, I am so happy, so content, and so feeling a sense of Anthony’s approval and presence here. And with Ming and his beautiful partner living just around the corner, I know I am blessed.

I thank all of the blog friends who supported and encouraged me throughout Anthony’s illnesses and Ming’s catapults and my dark days.

Julie


24 responses to “Anthony, me and Ming

  1. susanpoozan says:

    So pleased to read this post and know that all is well with you at last. Thanks for letting us know.

  2. beth says:

    i am so happy to read this and to see you. and happy that you have peacefully settled into life –

  3. Val Boyko says:

    I’m so glad you have found contentment Julie 💛🙏💛

  4. I always looked forward to your posts! Your writing style made me feel like part of the story. It was as if you were my friend sitting across from me with a cup of coffee, telling me about your day. I can never thank you enough for enriching my life!

    I love that you know and understand what works best for you in Life now. I join all your Readers in supporting you, and I send you well-wishes from the small Island of Roatan, Honduras!

  5. arlene says:

    Hi Julie, nice to see you back.

  6. Ms. Boice says:

    It was lovely waking up to this post. I’ve missed your updates but understand that you’ve been doing what you need to do to take care of yourself. Know that this reader will always greet your words with open arms.

  7. Writer Lori says:

    So nice to hear your voice again, Julie and know that you are well.

  8. judyrutrider says:

    It’s good to hear from you again.

  9. misifusa says:

    Julie, I’m happy to see you are still here. Sending heartfelt hugs xoxo

  10. So happy for you!

  11. It is wonderful to see you ‘here’ and to hear happiness and contentment is part of your life.

  12. So good to see a post from you, you have been missed

  13. tootlepedal says:

    It was good to read this and find that you and Ming are well. I hope that you will find a way to write the occasional post at least, because I always enjoy reading your words.

  14. Good to see your entry today. It sounds like you are easing into your new life and I suspect that that is something to write about. I wish you continued success and contentment and look forward to your posts.

  15. So glad to see this post from you and to know that you are happy and that Ming is, too.

  16. Who I am says:

    I think about you so often. I can remember our heavy hearts and words we shared between my brother’s illness and your Ants. Time heals but I have not filled that void in my heart yet and wonder if I ever will. My life changed and never went back to what it was. I still help MSA patients and I now have Parkinson’s, Ataxia and MSA symptoms. I am doing fare for what I am living and wish I was like my brother was, blessed with a family member to help me later on, but so far, I am doing ok for myself. I use a walker and have changed my lifestyle vastly. Love you my friend. Can you share with me what you are doing to fill your hours?

    • jmgoyder says:

      Oh me too – I so miss the days when we both encouraged each other as it was brilliant! I feel terrible to have lost touch but I do dip in to see how you are going in a quiet way – you are a legend Terry!

  17. Julie I was so pleased to see this blog post and glad you are settling into a new life.

  18. Poetry Fluff says:

    I was so glad to hear from you and I’m happy to read that you are settled near Ming – and he has a partner! I remember him as a boy. x

  19. Judy says:

    What a beautiful update, Julie! I’ve missed you very much and am really glad to hear that you’ve reached a more peaceful place after all you’ve gone through. Sending love and hugs!

  20. Hi Julie… Nice to see you again. So glad that you’re feeling more content in your new home. I think I mentioned before that my husband was diagnosed last year with Alzheimer’s…. We have some changes and challenges but we take one day at a time. Remembering some of what you journaled has helped me … Anyway, take care Diane

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: