I keep trying to embrace the idea of death, but I can’t imagine Anthony gone.
So I’m beginning to understand this kind of grief via the blogs of friends who grieve for loved ones.
It might be my turn next but I’m not sure…. Death-defying?
My best friend – Anthony.
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Julie, Speaking with a touch of experience, you should prepare yourself as best as possible. Acknowledging that death is coming, is not giving in to it or giving up. It allows you to accept what you have left and enjoy it even more. — Please take care, Bill
Thanks, Bill – you are a legend.
(((HUGZ)))!!!
Ditto!
You are so strong and your story is inspiring.
What a wonderful thing to say – thank you.
What can one say.?.. be strong dear Julie…
I know you understand – thanks, Bulldog.
Big Hug
Got it – thanks!
We will be here. 🙂
That is so comforting.
Understandable I think…While I’m not in the circumstances that you are… I too from time to time try to imagine life without my husband of 50 years…and I can’t….Diane
The fact that Ants is in the nursing lodge has, I guess, gotten us used to being apart, but srill there. I am scared of the next phase.
Wow, Julie… I just read this… I felt your words when I read them… my heart felt such sadness for your thoughts. I just wanted you to know I cared that you are feeling so sad. Love, Gloria
Thank you so much, Gloria.
(( Oh, Julie))
Bad moment – sorry.
No apologies. I was just sending you e-hugs (()) . It sounded like you could use one.
I can’t bring myself to “like” this post, but my heart goes out to you.
Countless in my particular community have had to say goodbye to a precious loved one, either in a more expected fashion after a longish decline or after a blinding downward spiral that was unthought of quite literally the week before. I can’t fathom it and my heart breaks for all who must endure this type of loss, no matter what the particular disease process has been.
I’m not sure it can ever come naturally… be patient with yourself. With grieving comes such a wide range of emotion. ❤
Thank you so much – my dad died very suddenly and now my husband dies slowly – two different kinds of grief.
My thoughts have been with you. >KB
You are so lovely, KB.
I know how you feel.
For years, I philosophized about death being a door to another reality, another plane. I have believed in reincarnation. I have believed in spirits, ghosts, and people returning… I have believed in people “not leaving”… that they stay …
until recently. Recently, I thought about myself, dying … and I was afraid.
Technically, I still believe in all that stuff! But when I REALLY thought about me, dying … I realized that I really didn’t know. And I am afraid.
I’ve told certain people that they couldn’t die. I’ve told certain animal friends that they “weren’t allowed to leave.” My cat Hino died when he was 18 years old, so maybe just maybe he heard me and tried to stay as long as he could.
I don’t know. I’m trying to come to terms with the concept of death, and to be able to ascertain what I DO believe. (That’s one reason why I wrote a poem about dying recently. That’s me, starting to “come to terms.”)
Anyway, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I really really wish you luck.
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Your swirling thoughts are so much like mine – thank you so much for this!
Oh my dear friend – I wish I could spare you this dreadful journey.
I feel the same for you.
That is a hard one to click like on. Who knows what’s next for any of us? You said it, with your comment “might be my turn…” same here. Who knows if this will be my last type written words ever. If they are, right here right now let me say I like you, and I mean it. I like when you pop in with your supportive cheers. And, if you experience the loss you’re fearing and I’m around, I hope I can offer you comfort. Meanwhile, just little old me here now offering a big cyber hug to your sweet self. Paulette
Well that produced a tear or two – thank you so much Paulette! Juliex
Julie, I don’t think we can prepare and embrace thought of losing somebody we love. So don’t start thinking about how to handle that in advance – because deep inside you know that it will happen and that is more than enough for now. Don’t take out the grief in advance … just embrace every day you can talk to him and visit him, because he are still there … I know it’s so tough at times, but he still loves you.
Yes, you caught me lookng ahead too much – thanks Viveka!
Yes, Julie .. when the day comes you have to deal with it … because we can never prepare ourselves for a lost that big, so take the day as it comes to you now.
I see no reason to embrace death or even the idea of it. Embrace life and enjoy everything you can while you can.
Uh oh. I think I just gave unsolicited advice. Sorry!
I would buy your unsolicited advice – wonderful!
it is not something we want to accept. enjoy the time you have. keep making memories. i am sad for you and send hugs.
I love that idea of making memories – thank you Sandra.
I can’t imagine my life without Tim and yes I have tried there have been nights laying in bed when Tim has been working in Sydney that I have thought what would it be life without him but the thought of it hurt to much that I couldn’t think about it. As much as he annoys me at times I love him and can’t imagine not having him around to annoy me……..
Photo of your Tim please!
It is always hard, whether sudden or with warning. 😦 There is a tearing away of a part of the heart.
Your description is perfect.
Even when it comes, you still won’t be ready for it. We’ll be here for you. Sending you BIG Texas love and prayers across the waves…XO
I love your Texas hugs!
BE ENCOURAGED! BE BLESSED!
Thank you.
I am sending my love and my prayers… We are always here for you… Love and Hugs, nia
Love to you too Nia.
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Sending you lots of hugs and warmth thoughts to fill the gaps.
Death is one thing which I don’t think any of us like to think about, be it slow & lingering or abrupt & shocking.
But the reality is that Death is part of all our Lives.
Instead of avoiding thinking about it, it is better to understand its meaning. It’s better to have an acceptance of this reality and then it may be easier to face in the future.
If one can’t accept the reality of Death as a Part of Living, then it’s far more painful to accept the eventuality of Death (when it arrives). If that makes sense. V xo
Cannot imagine Jules.
I had a bit of a bleak moment.
The loss of a loved one shouldn’t be easy, should it? Still, I send you thoughts of acceptance and peace.
Good point – got me thinking instead of feeling. Thank you for this help!