Anthony’s voice has become so soft, he is hardly audible now. How did this happen so fast? One minute I am jotting down his brilliantly cryptic phrases, and the next he is unable to utter a single word.
Parkinson’s disease (in all its variations) has such a conglomeration of symptoms, the tremor symptom being just one, that it took years to figure out what the hell was wrong with Anthony. Understandably, perhaps, I just thought he was getting old really fast.
As Ming grew from baby to child to teenager, Anthony’s usually loud voice gradually lost its point, its force, its boom.
So, from now on, I will be listening to his whispers more intently than usual. He will have to check with me re the placement of every single comma!
The recent rumour that Ants was near death absolutely infuriated me!
Whispers….
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I always feel privileged to lean in and hear your whispers, Julie. ❤
What a lovely thing to say – thanks Ann!
Surely anyone that matters to you will see through your brother-in-law’s foolishness and malice.
Hopefully. I think it’s more foolishness than malice. I’ve decided to give him the benefit of the doubt!
I am so glad your are writing, it is cathartic and releases the negative energy into the universe where it should be rather than infecting you and bringing you down. Big hugs Jules!! Xx
I’m glad to be writing again too! xxx
Such a cruel disease Julie. Hugs to all of you. ❤
Diana xo
At least he is not in any physical pain. xxxx
Maybe you can put that anger in your fist, keep it close and bash people with it or hold it up like a dandelion and blow it away – you have better things to do with your brain time now.. I would humbly suggest: let it go. People process grief differently. And grief is what you are all feeling in one way or the other. Allow him his. Allow yourself to get past it and get on with your own life’s work. You are a naturally gracious person. You are bigger than this anger. Blow it away, Julie. Hold your hand up like Marilyn Monroe blowing a kiss and blow your anger away. Again and again until it is gone. I say this as a friend who knows nothing and loves you. Love, love.. c
You are absolutely right Cecilia – thank you!
I’m so happy that Anthony has you to love and care for him. ❤
Me too!
I wish he would to. Listening intently to you, Julie, share your love for your man.
I deleted that bit and wrote a follow-up post!
I saw that … and also feel you are entitled to feel anger. xoxo hugs …..
And even though he whispers, I know he roars still with his love for you.
And I’m sorry for what others do. There’s enough worry and pain without others adding to it, thoughtlessly.
I seem to have become a bit fragile lately, alas.
I think you are not as fragile as you think (just my humble opinion) but overwhelmed with such intense emotion.
I hear ya, and I understand. Big hug to you sweet Jules. ❤
Thanks Paulette!
and whispers can be more powerful than any yell can ever be.
Yes!
Such a contrast here! The rumor “whispers” are best left unheard, whereas Anthony’s whispers are golden. No matter how softly Anthony speaks or even if he is silent, his booming voice will reverberate within the precious memories in your heart and mind.
You are absolutely right Judy – thank you.
Speechless. “Likes” and “comments” do not fit any response I could possibly have to this entry. So that you may hear Anthony’s whispers better, I will try to be quiet. Peace in 2016, dear Julie.
I can already feel the peace, Lisa. Thanks and same to you!
Thinking of you Julie! Diane xx
Thanks, Diane. xxx
I hear you Julie.
Thanks, Tom.
Yes I know nan now speaks only in a whisper and we have to listen carefully to get what she is saying.
How old is your nan?
some people are just despicable! that’s all …… just needed to say it.