wings and things


on January 3, 2016

Anthony’s voice has become so soft, he is hardly audible now. How did this happen so fast? One minute I am jotting down his brilliantly cryptic phrases, and the next he is unable to utter a single word.

Parkinson’s disease (in all its variations) has such a conglomeration of symptoms, the tremor symptom being just one, that it took years to figure out what the hell was wrong with Anthony. Understandably, perhaps, I just thought he was getting old really fast.

As Ming grew from baby to child to teenager, Anthony’s usually loud voice gradually lost its point, its force, its boom.

So, from now on, I will be listening to his whispers more intently than usual. He will have to check with me re the placement of every single comma!

The recent rumour that Ants was near death absolutely infuriated me!


33 responses to “Whispers

  1. Ann Koplow says:

    I always feel privileged to lean in and hear your whispers, Julie. ❤

  2. susanpoozan says:

    Surely anyone that matters to you will see through your brother-in-law’s foolishness and malice.

  3. I am so glad your are writing, it is cathartic and releases the negative energy into the universe where it should be rather than infecting you and bringing you down. Big hugs Jules!! Xx

  4. Such a cruel disease Julie. Hugs to all of you. ❤
    Diana xo

  5. Maybe you can put that anger in your fist, keep it close and bash people with it or hold it up like a dandelion and blow it away – you have better things to do with your brain time now.. I would humbly suggest: let it go. People process grief differently. And grief is what you are all feeling in one way or the other. Allow him his. Allow yourself to get past it and get on with your own life’s work. You are a naturally gracious person. You are bigger than this anger. Blow it away, Julie. Hold your hand up like Marilyn Monroe blowing a kiss and blow your anger away. Again and again until it is gone. I say this as a friend who knows nothing and loves you. Love, love.. c

  6. Lynda says:

    I’m so happy that Anthony has you to love and care for him. ❤

  7. I wish he would to. Listening intently to you, Julie, share your love for your man.

  8. And even though he whispers, I know he roars still with his love for you.

    And I’m sorry for what others do. There’s enough worry and pain without others adding to it, thoughtlessly.

  9. I hear ya, and I understand. Big hug to you sweet Jules. ❤

  10. ksbeth says:

    and whispers can be more powerful than any yell can ever be.

  11. Judy says:

    Such a contrast here! The rumor “whispers” are best left unheard, whereas Anthony’s whispers are golden. No matter how softly Anthony speaks or even if he is silent, his booming voice will reverberate within the precious memories in your heart and mind.

  12. Lisa Rest says:

    Speechless. “Likes” and “comments” do not fit any response I could possibly have to this entry. So that you may hear Anthony’s whispers better, I will try to be quiet. Peace in 2016, dear Julie.

  13. Thinking of you Julie! Diane xx

  14. tootlepedal says:

    I hear you Julie.

  15. Yes I know nan now speaks only in a whisper and we have to listen carefully to get what she is saying.

  16. some people are just despicable! that’s all …… just needed to say it.

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