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wings and things

Imagined conversation 16

on March 11, 2018

Me: I had another dream about you, Ants.

Anthony: Let me guess – I came back to life?

Me: All of your brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews surprised me by bringing you to a holiday cottage owned by my cousins.

Anthony: And…?

Me: You were sitting in a wheelchair, surrounded by your relatives, even the ones who have also died. It was a bit of a shock and I didn’t know what to do.

Anthony: It was a dream, Jules … it was just a dream.

Me: So I started trying to make coffee and tea for all of the people and I couldn’t find the sugar or milk and it was all a bit of a panic because everyone said we only had an hour before you had to be helicoptered back.

Anthony: Back to where?

Me: I don’t know! The nursing home maybe? Heaven? Anyway the dream became a nightmare because I was rushing from the kitchen to sit next to you, then back to the kitchen to check that the kettles were boiling enough to make tea, then frantically back to you to hug you and…

Anthony: Why are you crying now, Jules? I’ve been dead for nearly seven months.

Me: Because they took you away before I got a chance to say a proper goodbye to you. And they didn’t believe me when I said you didn’t need the wheelchair. Plus I was wearing some sort of Velcro that attached me to where your wheelchair was and I couldn’t free myself in time to see you off. I was so worried that you wouldn’t survive the trip home.

Anthony: Jules?

Me: What?

Anthony: It was just a dream.

Me: I need to make sense of it, Ants!

Anthony: No you don’t. Just move along the way you are.

Me: How, when I have these dreams?

Anthony: Buy the kayak.

Me: Really? It’s okay with you? Well, actually, I already did (it’s okay, it didn’t break the bank account).

Anthony: I thought it was a bit of a radical move to begin with but now I think it’s a good idea.

Me: Why?

Anthony: Because you are you.

Me: What about all of those people in the dream?

Anthony: You, Jules – just you.

Me: It’s no wonder I love you so much, Ants.

Anthony: I agree wholeheartedly.

 


10 responses to “Imagined conversation 16

  1. susanpoozan says:

    What a very confusing dream, take Anthony’s advice though won’t you.

  2. Your dream brings to mind the words of a song that I like to sing
    —– from the movie ‘Titanic.’
    “Every night in my dreams, I see you–I feel you
    that is how I know you go on.
    Far across the distance and spaces between us
    you have come to show you go on
    Near, far, wherever you are
    I believe that the heart does go on
    Once more you open the door
    And you’re here in my heart
    And my heart will go on and on…..

    The love between you two lives on.
    God Bless You and Ants …..forever…….

  3. I added a comment and it disappeared.
    So I will try one more time.
    ——————————————————–
    Your dream reminds me of the words of a song from the movie “Titanic.”
    Here are the beautiful lyrics:
    “…..Every night in my dreams
    I see you. I feel you
    That is how I know you go on
    Far across the distance
    And spaces between us
    You have come to show you go on
    Near, Far
    Wherever you are
    I believe that the heart does go on
    Once more
    You open the door
    And you’re here in my heart
    And my heart will go on and on……”
    God bless you and Ants forever!

  4. hope your dreams get happier, get out on your bike, paddle that kayak and have some fun. you deserve it.

  5. Judy says:

    When I read this, I feel all teary for what you are going through, Julie. Sending you a big hug. I’m so glad Anthony is with you and lending his comfort.

  6. Some dreams can give us a headache trying to make sense of them, so we just need to accept it was just a dream that made no sense and move on

  7. tootlepedal says:

    I am looking forward to takes of the kayak. I am glad that Anthony approved of it.

  8. I love this dream Julie, it has some good messages in it for you and I’m glad you bought a kayak, because it will slow you down and being on the water you will find you don’t need to do anything, to receive a sign from Anthony 💚

  9. Tiny says:

    Good for you for buying a kayak! And see, he came to the same conclusion albeit a bit later ❤

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