Me: I failed the motorbike test yesterday.
Anthony: It’s okay, Jules. You can do it again.
Me: There is something fundamentally wrong with my brain when it comes to U-turns, Ants. The fear is like some sort of weird vice. Plus I am too fast – it’s like I am trying to rush into succeeding but I can’t help it!
Anthony: Well, you were always knee-jerk, Jules.
Me: That’s not fair, Ants! I don’t mean to be like that – I really am trying my best here.
Anthony: So why did the guy who took you for the test ask if you were part of the Peter Brock family?
Me: Because he was being sarcastic!
Anthony: Why are you in such a rush, Jules?
Me: I feel sort of desperate….
Anthony: Desperate for what?
Me: Something to do with your motorbikes maybe? Trying to keep up? Wanting to make you proud?
Anthony: I am already proud and always was.
Me: Of what?
Anthony: You!
Me: I wanted to ride a scooter again, reclaim my youth, honour your motorbike days, go fast fearlessly.
Anthony: Jules, you really need to bring your decades up to speed and stop living in the past. Why are you in such a hurry all the time?
Me: I don’t know. I just want to get everything over with. Or begin something new? Make myself into a new person? Make you proud? Be brave?
Anthony: Just STOP.
Me: Stop what?
Anthony: Everything, Jules.
Me: I can’t stop, Ants!
Anthony: You are not going to find me in those scooter wheels, Jules.
Me: Why?
Anthony: I was a Guzzi guy, remember?
Me: I am so pathetic.
Anthony: Not at all, Jules. D. and I just think it’s best if you stick to the car.
Me: Okay, Ants. I thought I was okay after failing the motorbike licence test but when I got home I just cried and cried and cried.
Anthony: Give it up, Jules.
Me: But I hate giving up, Ants!
Anthony: It takes a lot of courage to give up when you know that going on is futile.
Me: In that case, I give up!






